Self-Love Chronicles: The End of My 30's

Hi Y'all,

I know, it's been a while since I have written to you, and for that I truly apologize; life was definitely "life-ing," but I made sure to come back to you, no matter what, especially because....



Anyone who truly knows me knows that I take my birthday very seriously and being that this year is my last year in my 30's, I had to ensure that I mustered up the emotional endurance for me to personally update you on what has been going on with me, and what I have learned over the last 3 months. I promise you it will leave you inspired.

Here we go...

First off, I made sure to enjoy my summer to the best of my ability. I spent a lot of time with myself in reflection and in appreciation of my surroundings both in and outdoors. I also made a decision to switch therapists, a decision that has begun to challenge me in the ways I needed and didn't know I needed to be. I would be remiss if I didn't mention that my prior therapist definitely assisted in the preparation for where I am in my process today. Every single decision made and experience I indulged in this summer, has equipped me with both the emotional and spiritual strength needed for me to work through the sporadic reflective moments that I have experienced.

Although I do not owe anyone an explanation, I felt it was necessary to share this, especially since I was trying my best to be as consistent as possible with my monthly blog posts. All in all, my absence was due to life happening and it still happening, but such as life, we move on, so let's get to the "fun," yet life changing things I want to share with you all!

The beginning of August kicked off with a quick little solo weekend getaway to Puerto Rico to host as Mistress of Ceremonies for the first time at my friends wedding. I discovered yet another talent that I must add to my resume, y'all! So, if you looking for a MC for your next event or for a wedding, holla at ya girl, lol!

Aside from that, I must say, I have experienced and learned A LOT about myself, family, friends, and how to somewhat navigate through my dating life. I am way more aware of the things that I deem necessary and non-negotiable in my love, family, and friendship dynamics, and I am more confident to stand firm on my beliefs. I have also realized how

understanding I have become in considering the different perspectives of others and how to give myself and some others that deserve it, the gifts of patience and grace.

Despite working on my passion project,

I made sure that I made time for myself and the things that I love to do. I find that it is very important to make time for the things I love despite all the things I have going on in my life, because I refuse to be a slave to one thing...ever.

I was able to take myself out to eat often, hung out with family, went on several dates, and had some quick getaways to Atlanta and as mentioned, Puerto Rico. A few of my dating experiences went well, was optimistic about them, however, that feeling proved itself to be short lived, for now. Due to this unexpected trend, I was forced to perform some self-inventory to discover why that kept occurring and what does it mean for me in my life at this current time. So far, I am learning a lot about myself and am praying that God is preparing both myself and my person for each other.

All in all, I discovered that what I truly long for is genuine, unfiltered, authentic, and intentional intimacy. Intimacy that begins in the mind and soul, not the bedroom. Once this epiphany was realized, it truly shifted how I am choosing to date moving forward. More to come on that topic on later blog posts.

I chose to remain in the vein of transparency by continuing to share my skin journey on my Instagram account and was humbled by the amount of people I was able to help with just 2 IG Live posts that I posted 3 months apart. These transparency posts allowed me to love and accept myself and all of my flaws even more, as well as remind myself that I am not perfect, AND, I am still beautiful inside and out despite what ANYONE thinks.

To add on to that love of self and my new, clear skin, I decided to chop off 16 years of

energies (both good and bad) off my head.


This cut has allowed me to truly embrace my beauty, my aura, and the new being that I am becoming. There is so much more of a deeper meaning to me cutting them off, however, for some reason, God has not allowed me to articulate that emotion yet. All I can say is that I feel liberated, unapologetic, and more beautiful than ever before. I have decided to literally see myself unfiltered every single day without hiding behind make-up and my long loc'd tresses. I SEE ME. TRULY SEE ME...and there is no running away from myself anymore.

I face myself and my challenges head on each and every day. I feel my feels but don't dwell in that place. I laugh and choose happiness intentionally. I request constructive feedback from friends and family, in order to implement change. I truly want to embody the change I want to see, in me. I no longer want to verbalize that change. I want to embody it, and want to be such a powerful, consistent, and inspiring force in this world. For me, and for everyone that I encounter.

I can honestly and positively say that I love myself more than ever before, FLAWS AND ALL, I am imperfectly perfect.

I appreciate your patience with me, and for the ones that reached out for my birthday, thank you so much.

Before y'all leave, just need your opinion on something...

I am working on possibly transitioning this blog into a vlog, so question...

Would you like to see me talk to y'all weekly or monthly about my journey back my self and all the lessons learned along the way?


Would you rather read about it?

Please comment below and let me know!

Nonetheless, I will be back next month (maybe via video) to wrap up yet another year of A Colorful Dreamer!

Thank you for reading y'all, chat soon!

No matter what, never forget to:

Be Audacious.

Be Fearless.

Be Intentional.


Lead with Love.


Love Always,

Your Dope Colorful Dreamer,

Myrna πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’œ

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